after Enchanted and He’s Just Not That Into You

it’s not a lesson,,,, it’s just ordinary thought,,, i still think of him, althou i know he’s some of jerk, but i don’t brave like Janice or Giselle look for another promising chance, i’m just a melodramatic kinda woman,, and yeahhh I WANNA SOME OTHER CHANCE,,,

so,
“Fear not shadows,
They simply mean that there’s a light somewhere nearby”

cheers,
MAYA

Things i wanna tell u

I don’t know, for a while, I had this tiny smidge of hope that one day, we’d be together again. But, last night, when we talked…I knew. I just knew you were in love with her. The kind of love that stays forever…now all I’m left with is a broken heart and shattered hopes and dreams.

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It’s about time that I came clean with you. I’m no longer fine, I’m no longer running smooth. I thought that I found myself under something new. Just one more line I repeat over and over again, ‘till I’m blue in the face with a choking regret
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Someday being with [him] will be a distant memory. This fact makes me sad too. It’s like when someone dies, the initial stages of grief seem to be the worst. But in some ways, it’s sadder as time goes by and you consider how much they’ve missed in your life
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You know what’s wrong with us? You are. You build us up. You make us feel like we have a chance. You make us feel special, and then when we don’t expect it, you knock us down. And you don’t even realize (or care) that you have just crushed us in this way… In a way that you feel it from the deepest part of your chest. You feel everything inside of you crumble and its all you can do to keep it all at bay. To not let it overflow and pour out. Here’s the thing: we don’t let people into our beds without letting them into our hearts. We don’t let people into our guarded worlds without letting them into our hearts. We don’t let people in… we don’t let you in without giving you this part of ourselves that no one else has. A part that we don’t give very often, if ever. Of course we’ll lie about what we’re feeling; why would you want to be the only person in this letting down guards? Why would you want to be the only person hurting? You fake a smile. You fake making it. You fake it because its easier to pretend that nothing hurts. Its easier to pretend that you didn’t love this person. Its easier to pretend that the sweet moments, the sweet words, the longing, the wishing, the hoping all along the way was nothing more than something we made up because we all know its better to be delusional than lied to. Don’t worry though, eventually we’ll move on and you’ll be nothing more than a faded memory.
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I’m not upset that you lied to me, I’m upset that from now on I can’t believe you
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And my only regret is I gave you all I have
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Even more, I had never meant to love him. One thing I truly knew – knew it in the pit of my stomach, in the center of my bones, knew it from the crown of my head to the soles of my feet, knew it deep in my empty chest – was how love gave someone the power to break you

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forgive

Forgiveness is not a value strong enough to stand on. You have to win some sort of victory over the people who have hurt you.