Yah, saya sangat menderita. Menderita akibat patah hati yang tak kunjung usai dengan orang yang saya tunggu selama 7 tahun. Hahaha, super pathetic memang. Berbagai macam denial dan senyum palsu sudah saya umbar tapi tetap saja ada hal-hal yang susah dilupakan sambil mencaci maki diri saya: Where the heck was my head 4 months ago when I said ‘YES!’ to my ex?
Berat sekali melupakan walau saya tau dan sadar sesadar-sadarnya bahwa hidup saya belum berakhir dan saya harus moveon. Okay, moveon ini sementara saya artikan untuk berubah menjadi lebih baik dan segera menggandeng pasangan baru yang jauh lebih baik untuk diPAMERkan di depan ex! Yupe, saya masih ingin bales dendam. Walau kata orang bijak, balas dendam itu gak baik. I just don’t care.
Pagi ini saya bangun jam 12, niat mau ngerjain tugas apa daya malah browsing kemana-mana.. secara natural, saya ke address box google, menulis how to ease broken heart, sebetulnya berharap banyak saran bodoh yang akan ditawarkan ke saya. well, ternyata ada BANYAK SEKALI SARAN yang ada, saya sampai bingung memilih. tapi dari beberapa saran expert, saya memilih random. Lucu-lucu sekali dan the stupid part is they really made it seriously. Saya baru sadar broken heart adalah penyakit.
Ini dia beberapa contohnya:
“For someone who writes about relationships, it is pretty risky to make the statement that age matters; however, I believe in speaking the truth. I also believe in voicing the concerns of the those that visit this site. From this vantage point and with respect to love and heartbreak, age definitely matters.
Here is the reason why: we each have a grand plan for our life based on age. It goes something like this:
• In my teens, I’ll get into a good college or get a good job.
• In my early twenties, my career will start to take off.
• By my mid-twenties, I will meet the person of my dreams.
• In my thirties, I will be married and have 2.2 beautiful children.
• In my forties, I’ll be running the company for which I’ve been working.
• In my fifties, I’ll reflect back on my life and my grown children and smile.
• In my sixties, I’ll retire and travel the world.
Sound familiar? Give or take a few years and interchange a couple of details and these types of age confined dreams are quite universal. So what happens when things don’t go as expected? What happens when instead of two kids in our thirties, we end up with our heart in two pieces? We feel broken.
Not only is our heart shattered, so too is our self-perception. It is critical to understand that the pain one feels after a break up is only partially due to the separation from our mate. What causes equal, if not greater, agony is dealing with our crushed dreams. Our dream to be a certain age and have accomplished certain things has been stolen. To overcome the challenge of heartbreak based on age related fears, we must face them head on.”
yeahh, ke laut saja kau, my Ex! pergi kamu dengan janji-janji palsumuuuu! i can’t handle u anymore yet i’m about to ruin your daysss!
*emm, gak juga ding. saya pasti luluh kalo ngeliat dia lagi bingung.. argggh, patah hati ini memang membingungkan!*
apa kabar maya ???